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"You may find that having is not so pleasing a thing as wanting. This is not logical, but it is often true." -- Spock, giving advice to Stonn in Star Trek's 1967 episode "Amok Time"
You've certainly built-up hype about this game for yourself so much that I'm afraid once you finally DO get to play it, you be all like, "Meh," and it'll be a tremendous let-down...
There's nothing to fear, however; when QFI's full game is finally released, it will once again restore your faith in computer gaming...